I have been missing my dad terribly. I had a good run for a few weeks, but this last week or so, I have been struggling. I don't know if it is summer (his favorite) my birthday, I turned 37 on July 14th, or just life, but boy do I miss him.
It helps sometimes when something little happens that sparks a memory. Like, for instace when Cassidy, Nate and I were down in Capitol Reef on the 4th of July and Cassidy went into the indian jewelery store. She wanted a pretty turquoise ring, like grampa had. It made me so happy that she had that memory of him. We bought her a plain little band with red and blue turquiose, he would of loved it. She also did jump rope for heart and the end of the school year. Last year, my dad helped her raise money for her shirt and jump rope, this year she did it on her own and came home with the shirt.
We have done a few car shows and those are always fun, but his absence is felt by all. Life is hard, but I know i need to keep clawing my way up the dirt wall and I will reach the top.
Coby is registered at UVU to start the Automotive program and I know my dad would be excited for him. Cannon just took a trip to Nashville with her dad and visited the Johnny Cash musuem and Sun Studio, my dad would be tickled.
My mom make it out to the cemetary every day and takes balloons and coffee sometimes. We miss him. I hope he knows he is and was loved. Families are hard, you don't always get along, but you will always be a part of one another. |
