Fathers Day

I had a really hard day on fathers day. I tried really hard to be brave for Nate. We got up and went golfing with our cute neighbor Dianne. She is a widow and thought it would be fun to go together since this year would be different, and she could relate with us.
It was fine, we went to Spanish Oaks and Nate and I had fun. We then went to the cemetary and took my dad a flag. We didn't get out to Allens grave since we went on Memorial Day and Joyce went to Idaho for fathers day. I am glad she went to see Grandpa Bart. Me, Nate and Cassidy went our for Sushi and then had an Icecream cake which was Cassidy's gift to her dad. Coby gave Nate a cool new tank top from his new job at Zumiez. The day was great.  Two people are missing. It is hard when someone is missing. It's even harder when you know they aren't coming back. I miss my dad more and more everyday. It's not getting easier. I know it will but right now I feel stuck. I wake up every morning sick. I call it morning sickness. It takes my brain a minute to reset and I start to feel better. This has been difficult because I am a morning person, and at the moment I dread the mornings. It will pass. I miss my dads voice. I miss him.